‘I was never believed’ – Evil predator left his child victim so traumatised she tried to take her own life
A Grimsby woman who was sexually abused as a child has been left so mentally traumatised by her evil attacker, she has tried to take her own life.
The woman has revealed the harrowing affects the abuse by sick Mark Todd had on her when she was just a vulnerable child and how it continues to torment her every day.
But thanks to her bravery, justice has now finally been served after Todd was jailed for 15 years for 13 historic child sexual offences at Hull Crown Court – including gross indecency, sexual assault, attempted rape and rape.
For years, Todd’s victim believed nothing wrong had happened to her but it was only when she was older that she had the courage to go to the police.
The abuse has left the woman mentally scarred and she has even attempted several times to take her own life to end her mental suffering.
But she is now receiving help and wants other sexual abuse victims to find the strength to report what happened to them to the police, no matter how long ago it happened.
She said: “It happened when I was younger and it wasn’t until years later that I realised it wasn’t normal and that what was happening was wrong.
“At the time, it was really difficult for me to comprehend. I was really confused about everything that was happening. It became so hard for me that at one point I tried to take my own life.
“I didn’t tell anyone at first because I just didn’t think that anyone would believe what had happened to me. Eventually, during my teenage years, I did speak out about my trauma, but, as I feared, no one believed me.
“At that age, it was all too much and it was heart breaking, even soul destroying to know I wasn’t being believed.”
The affects from her trauma remain to this day.
She said: “I tried to switch off from it all, but it was always at the back of my mind.
“However, recently, it’s all come flooding back to me. Now I’m trying to actually deal with it rather than just suppress it. I’ve also been struggling with my mental health because of it in the past few years.
“I was diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (EUPD) and have attempted to take my life a further three times in my adult life because of the abuse I suffered. Thankfully, I now have a support network in place to help me.”
With her abuser having been convicted, she now wants other victims to know they should never suffer in silence.
The day she found out Todd would appear in court for his sick crimes was an emotional time for her.
She said: “When I finally found out that a case was being brought against him, I bawled my eyes out. To have got to that point where he might be convicted, I couldn’t actually believe it had happened.
“I know it’ll never go away, but I’m hoping I can use therapy so that it doesn’t affect me as much as it has done previously.
“To anyone suffering, I implore you to come forward, no matter the circumstances. Be strong and speak out as soon as you can, if I’d have spoken earlier, I may have seen justice brought sooner.”
Mark Todd, 63, of Lincoln Crescent, Kirton in Lindsey, was convicted of a number of historic child sex offences and sentenced to 15 years imprisonment at Hull Crown Court on Friday, April 30.
The offences were committed between 1998 and 2006.